tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-50635311804234987732024-02-08T02:14:02.957-08:00A ROLLERCOASTER LIFEA ROLLERCOASTER LIFESexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-37295211096733043222013-05-23T12:50:00.000-07:002013-05-23T12:50:17.512-07:00Turning Around My Day<span style="font-size: large;"><b>Well this has definitely been a down day. Haven't did anything all day but lay around in bed and sleep. Finally got up and dressed around 2:30 in the afternoon. Then decided to go on and do the dishes which I didn't want to do. But was tired of looking at them as my son wouldn't do them. I told him it was a greasy mess and now I knew why he didn't do them. Claimed he done them all the time which wasn't true as I would do them cause he would leave them sit for days. Said I messed up dishes too but this time I only used a bowl for ice cream, a coffee cup and a glass for orange juice all week. Been eating out or having bagels and cream cheese. Needless to say I went on and did them. Going to sweep his floors a little later as I have a dog that has chewed up some paper so want to do that so he can't complain. </b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><b>Someone told me that he wanted me to move in so he would have a free babysitter ( which I am) , cook meals and clean house also pay the bills. I am beginning to wonder. Though I don't cook , he has to do that ( I like sandwiches and Lean Cuisine or weight watcher meals) if I don't order out. Don't clean his house , but have done dishes several times and even his laundry twice ;as was tired of him starting it then leaving dirty cloths in the kitchen floor and at the bottom of the stairs in the living room. Besides had to get the washer and dryer emptied too so I could do my laundry. I only pay half of all the bills except the phone, cable , Internet ( it is a package deal) and his car insurance as it is linked to mine.</b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><b> I have got to change directions. If things don't get better I am going to move out. This is too much I may as well kept my place but thought living together would help us both out as he had gotten laid off from his job . I could help him with the bills and get out of debt myself. But so far it is not working out that way. Not getting any of my bills paid. </b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><b>Anyway my day didn't start off good but going to be better. Going to figure out what I want to eat, may order a pizza :) and get a movie to watch. Then going to do my laundry and pack for a trip I am taking to visit my other son in Toledo this holiday. Looking forward to seeing them as his wife spoils me. Got to love her. :) Besides want to get my son to start going to church and we have a lot to talk about.</b></span>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-58581445960660976092013-05-21T09:53:00.001-07:002013-05-21T09:53:13.217-07:00I Have Fallen By The Wayside.<b>It has been sooo long since I have posted anything here. It has been hard reading some of these posts. My beloved husband got really sick after my last posting and he passed that February. So I lost myself and sorta fell by the wayside as I was grieving so much. Didn't do anything or go anywhere. Then a couple years ago I started trying to get my life back together as I seemed to hear him telling me to stop crying. He enjoyed life and loved people and so I knew he wanted me to go on with my life. So even tho I still miss him and cry sometimes I am doing the best I can</b><b>.</b><br />
<b>Went back to my church and trying to do the Lord's will. I have gained weight so now I am going to try and get a hold of my eating and change my eating habits . Want to start eating healthier and lose the excess weight. </b><br />
<b>Also want to start posting again on my blogs. As I need to do that to keep myself motivated and see where my head is. So today is a start in a new and the right direction, I hope.</b>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-54809458593040860192009-02-01T16:31:00.000-08:002009-02-01T16:42:40.779-08:00Ups & Downs<strong>Well I am up today. Went to church this morning with my friend and did enjoy the service. Those I must say I really enjoy hearing the word. I used to love the music as I would praise the Lord in a dance. BUt now can't do that on account of my weight and knees . I do praise the Lord still but not the same way. When I got home I had to clean up dog mess as my dogs stayed in the house last night and they are not house broken. At least 2 of them are not I have 4 rat terriors. I hated that , they are supposed to be outside in a pen but my son let them in as it was so cold out. They are really house dogs but I just can't keep them in here all the time. Looks like they will be in here tonight too but tomorrow they are going back out. I didn't have to cook today my husband wanted barbequed wings so he went to the store came back and fixed them. He is watchin the super bowl so I am on here for awhile. Though I do think I just may get off here and fix something to go with them as I am hungery and I want more than chcken wings. It is already around 7:30 so guess I better go fix something then I can come back and post on my Sexynangetting Sexier Blog. As I want to post what I eat and my points as well as a couple other things. Meantime I hope all who read this are having a super day today.</strong><br /><strong></strong>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-90214985643823071622009-01-31T22:49:00.000-08:002009-01-31T23:05:03.963-08:00Date Set<strong>We got a letter from the attorney today with the date to go for a hearing about custody.I am hoping and of course praying that everything will go well this time.And we will finally see our grandson at least till the final decision on custody is made. The date is also the day I have a doctors appointment for my physical. I probably with change that appointment as I haven't even gone and had the tests or my mammagram yet. I really don't want to go but know I should. </strong><br /><strong>My hubby didn't go to dialysis today as his stomach was upset and he had to stay close to the bathroom. He got our son to go get some medicine so hope he will be better tomorrow. He is losing so much weight and he used to be a strong muscular man, but now he is so little.It really hurts me to see him look like this. But I am praying that he will get better and start putting on weight again. The doctor told him it will take about 3 more months for him to start feeling better and get his appetite back.</strong><br /><strong>Well tomorrow is super bowl Sunday and even though I don't like football I will let him watch it on the big TV. And guess I will be on my computer after church. Weiting abaout church I better go to bed or I might miss church again as it is already 2 in the morning.</strong>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-15134914807973344682009-01-29T13:24:00.000-08:002009-01-29T13:49:06.550-08:00Different Name<strong>I have started a new blog and it was under a name I like better for a christian blog. So instead of having to sign in under different names all the time I will be using the same name on all my blogs when posting.NancyakaNan. I am not feeling so sexy right now anyway.</strong><br /><strong>Well for more news , my son is trying to get custody of my grandson. We have a hearing date next month and I am praying things work out for him. His girlfriend got another boyfriend and made some false charges against him to get his name off the lease they had and has kept the baby away from all of us ever since. She is bipolar, maniac depressive and from what we hear is on coke (the drug) too. She has been in the mental health hospital. It is such a mess but we are really worried about our grandson. We used to babysit and keep our grandson overnight a lot while they both worked or when they wanted to go out. Our son's friends is also telling him he needs to get custody as she is not taking care of the baby , she leaves him with others all night while she goes out and with no pampers and dirty clothes on . He is so upset as he took care of his son ever since he was born. He would even take him with him when he went job hunting sometimes as the mother was either working or sleeping.</strong><br /><strong>We all miss him sooo much, and pray that we will get to see him soon. We still have his Christmas presents except for a couple outfits that were taken back as I figured they would be too small. I plan on buying him some more when we get him.</strong><br /><strong>My hubby is feeling better now . He is up fixing his self breakfast of a morning and doing dishes. He even did his laundry one day. You may say I should be doing that but I think it is better letting him do it. Cause if I did he would just continue to lay around not doing anything. And I think it is best and he will start feeling better if he does something. The doctor told him the other day that it will take 2 or 3 more months for him to start feeling more like his old self.</strong>Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-91243841957074025522009-01-26T18:18:00.000-08:002009-01-26T18:35:35.205-08:00Long Time<strong>It has been awhile since I have last posted. Was in a funk as I didn't feel like doing anything. Stopped doing my flylady stuff like making my bed every morning and shining my sink at night. Also didn't do anything around the house at all. My hubby started doing the dishes of the morning and fixing his breakfast. I loved doing psp but didn't even do that or get on any of my groups. I just sat in my recliner in front of the television all day until I decided to go to bed. I had rejoined Weight watchers and didn't even go back </strong><br /><strong>I am better now , finally started doing stuff again. Yesterday I started making backgrounds for yuku groups and made a tag. Today I have been doing laundry, trying to get that done up.And also been playing with my psp and doing tutorials. I don't know what kind of mood I was in other than just didn't feel like doing anything and being lazy.</strong><br /><strong>I did go to the doctor and it is time for my physical and I dread that. Going and having to take all the tests. I am putting that off as long as I can before my next doctors appointment.</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>Friday I am taking my dog Suzie and having her spade. She has had 2 litters of pups and I don't want the exspense of another litter. I raise rat terriors so there tails have to be docked , dew claws removed, wormed and of course puppy shots. Then it costs $65.00 to run a ad in the newspaper to get rid of them. </strong><br /><strong>Anyway that is what has been happening (nothing) and what I am doing now and plan to do.</strong>Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-36872478068046546572009-01-08T14:45:00.000-08:002009-01-08T15:02:21.840-08:00Today is another lazy dayToday has really been a lazy day for me. I didn't get up until noon , shame on me. I didn't even take the time to make my bed, just got my bath and came downstairs.Been on my computor most of the afternoon. Until Roscoe had to go to diailysis. I rode and went with my son to take his dad to treatment and went to weight watchers and signed up. I am hoping it will help me to get on a diet plan and stay on it. I haven't did any house cleaning or cooking at all. I have a meat loaf and thinking about having that for dinner. Just hope Roscoe will eat as lately he is saying he is not hungery.<br />It has been snowing all day yesterday and then today.But has stopped this evening and I am glad .I am hoping it melts and doesn't freeze.Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-42266484057381145422009-01-04T15:03:00.000-08:002009-01-04T15:16:40.031-08:00Going GoodI haven't been writing the past few days but things have been going good so far. Roscoe was feeling better so he went to Walmarts with me . Went to get his script but the pharmacy was closed but we got some things we needed in the grocery area anyway. Then stopped by the club he worked at to say hi to everyone and then left and went to another club to a party. We didn't stay long. But I was so glad that he felt a little like doing something and got out. Especially after almost in a coma a few days before. Friday I did laundry all day so didn't do much of anything else. Saturday I went and got my hair done . Then afterwards Roscoe had to go to dialysis. While he was there our son and I went to Red Lobster and had dinner. We didn't get to celebrate our birthdays last month(his was the 14th and mine the 115th) since Roscoe was in the hospital so since things have settled down some I took him to dinner. I would have taken Roscoe but he didn't want to go. Today I didn't get up till around 11 and then I watched a couple movies and then took a long nap. My hubby has been watching ball games all day and napping and our son is napping too now. He has been a rainy foggy day all day. Just right for being lazy.Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-87504852231976348832008-12-31T12:44:00.000-08:002008-12-31T13:06:40.042-08:00Getting It Together<strong>Well I have been on Peggys new site posting away yesterday. And it is working for me. I have started a exercise ,and water challenge. Posted my weight and measurements. I have posted a study in the chapel there on Women of the Bible. And also started cleaning my house , posting what I do each day. Then in Psp part I started a WWO thread where I am planning on making a tag and offering it to whoever wants one. Posted and played the games. I have been having a good time there. But mainly it is helping me so far to work on achieving my goals to a new me for the new year.</strong><br /><strong>Today was a little scarey as my hubby was almost in a diabetic coma. I was fixinfg his breakfast and thought he was just asleep. The home health care nurse came by and couldn't wake him. His BP was low and his suger was only 50 . We did get him awake enough to feed him some ice cream as I didn't have orange juice. So kept feeding him that and got him to eat a bite. Finally we got the levels back up to a better number. He did go back to sleep after they left. But I woke him back up so he could go to dialysis . They wanted him to eat some more before he came but I could only get him to eat peanut butter and graham crackers. I know when he gets out he is going to be worn out and be sleeping again. I was reading Job today and thinking about that story. So with everything that is going on here I only can begin to hope that I can hang on to my faith ,for not only myself but for my hubby and son's sake. I believe that everything will be alright but yet sometimes worry and fear try to creep in. I did play some of my gospel music yesterday while I was making my bed but guess I need to play it more often. As it does uplift me and strengthens my faith that nothing is impossible with God and He will work it out. </strong><br /><strong>And I know that if my mind is on God He will give me peace. Just need to keep my mind on Him and not the situations my loved ones and I are in.</strong>Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-19579794310169901432008-12-29T18:07:00.000-08:002008-12-29T18:25:56.144-08:00Feeling Pretty Good<strong><span style="font-size:130%;">I didn't get up today till noon. But felt pretty good all day. My hubby had went on and fixed his self some cereal so I didn't have to fix anything just give him his meds. I went on and folded up the linen on the sofa so he wouldn't be laying around sleeping all day. He would have to sit up in the recliner. Or could lay down if he got really tired. He did go to dialysis early today and when he came home said he was cold. Didn't want anything to eat . So when I get off here I will be going to make up the sofa for him and fix him something to eat anyway so he can take his meds for the night.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Today my son helped and did pick up some of his things and put stuff away. Took his dad to dialysis and then came back and vacuumed my floors. I picked up and straightened some things in my living room and cleaned my kitchen. Even mopped my floor. That was a big thing for me.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">My friend Peggy started a group on Yuku <a href="http://kaleidoscopeplace.yuku.com/directory">http://kaleidoscopeplace.yuku.com/directory</a> </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">and I have been over there most of the afternoon posting. Her group has inspired me and has me excited about making changes in my life for 2009. It is set up in sections and she has a section based on FlyLady where you get your house cleaned by doing a little each day. a section pertaing to losing weight with challenges, weigh ins and other things. A Chapel where you can have a bible study or post any christian posts. Recipes, Psp , hobbies, and games also a general area. I just love it as I want to make a change in my life, spiritually, physically and of course get my home cleaned. And I think this site will be a big help in motivating me.</span></strong>Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-64730281810074844032008-12-28T10:22:00.000-08:002008-12-28T10:42:42.401-08:00A Normal Day For Me AnymoreToday is another normal day for me. Boring and depressing. My hubby kinda got upset with me when I told him he needed to get up and start moving around instead of laying around all day. He said ,"Yeah Nancy I am going to get up and get out of here so I won't be in your way." Then I got angry and said he wasn't in my way I had just thought he would feel a little better. As laying around just makes you tired and weaker. I can imagine that he is feeling depressed with everything he has gone through and that he doesn't feel good. But can't see where laying around and not trying to move around is helping. He just waits on me to do everything and I know he can do some of it. Lord knows I am stressed out. I love my hubby dearly but I just want to get away for awhile but know that I would be worried about him by his self. Been crying again this morning and praying. I look at the mess my house is in and that is upsetting to me as I have no one to help clean it up. My son and his friends mess up and go off and leave it. I need to do laundry too. There is so much that needs to be done and I just don't have the energy to do it. Everything is so overwhelming I just want to go to my room and cry. I have wondered Lord what did I do to have all this come upon me. If this is some kind of trial or test I am going through I sure hope I pass it and it is over soon. Seems like we have been in this valley of misery for a long time and I want us to get back to the top of the mountain of happiness.Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-58421123992574780422008-12-27T10:11:00.000-08:002008-12-27T10:53:55.327-08:00A Beautiful Day<strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Oh it is such a beautiful day today. I can hardly believe it after yesterday. But the sun is out and it is supposed to get up in the 60's today.Well it is starting out good, my kitchen sink has been stopped up since before Christmas and I did put some bleach in it yesterday and again today. And Thank God the water has run out and it is no longer stopped up. I am not sure whether it was grease in the pipes or frozen somewhere but I can use my sink now so that is all that matters. I have started doing some laundry as I do want to get that out of the way. Then I hope to start getting my house back in some kind of shape. It will not be easy since my son is back here for awhile and so my things have been moved to make room for his stuff and still he has stuff piled up everywhere. I have no attic or basement to store his things so needless to say it is spread out all through my house.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">I am feeling so much better than I was yesterday so I do believe the weather has a lot to do with our moods. I am a little worried about my husband though. He didn't feel right yesterday and didn't want to eat, he just slept all day. Though I did get him to eat a couple peanut butter & jelly sandwichs last night. He got to looking at his arms and said they didn't look like his. He was a big, strong, muscular man and now he is so bony and his hair is coming out and he is upset. I tried to tell him this does sometimes happen to people when they get older.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Today he did eat a omelet , slice toast and some oatmeal. Drank a little milk when he took his meds. But he was talking about he was in everyones way. I did tell him that was crazy as we all loved and needed him. He is really down in his spirit so please remember him in your prayers. He does go to dialysis today so hope that will help his spirit a little though it does wear him out physically.He has been sleeping all day today too. I will be so grateful when he starts feeling better. It really hurts me to see him this way.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">I am hoping the New Year will be a better one for my husband, son and of course me. I am hoping my husband will be feeling more like his old self and starting to get out . That my son will have a good job , find a place he can afford and be able to be with his son. And as for me I want to renew my spirit and find a home church, lose weight and be healthier , and give my home a thorogh cleaning and new look.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Losing myself ,I want to thank you for your comment. We will always want the best for our children no matter how grown they are and have them in our heart and prayers. I have learned that we have to put our faith in God cause there is nothing we can do anyway. They make mistakes and sometimes get hurt but we can hope they learn by them and just be there for them when they need us.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"> I didn't know that was your sister's blog. I have read her blog and I do like her writings. They give me pause to think so I enjoy them.</span></strong>Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5063531180423498773.post-40977666428805603862008-12-26T15:35:00.000-08:002008-12-26T16:04:59.572-08:00A Cold Wet Dreary Day<strong><span style="font-size:130%;">It has been cold , foggy and has been misting rain all day. This evening it has started raining heavy. When it rains it seems like I get depressed. Especially at winter time. Rain in the summer is refreshing and I love the smell.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">Today wasn't a really good day to start with. My son's fiancee wanted him off the lease and since he wouldn't break it she decided to get a protection order against him. Thus the landlord had to remove his name off the lease and he had to move out. Some things he wasn't able to get moved as when he got served the papers he was only allowed to take his clothes. So besides him not allowed around her or his son we didn't get to see him either. She lied to get the order and now I had to get him a lawyer today. And believe me it was not cheap. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">I got mad and wanted to hurt her, then I was hurt and did a lot of crying. Some has said if she is going to fight dirty we need to do it too. But we are not going to do that. As I feel what goes around comes around and she is the babys mother. She will no longer have a babysitter so she can go out or to work. And will no longer have the use of a car.As my son kept his son all the time and took her where she had to go or let her drive the car. Her family won't do it. So I believe she just may regret what she did. I am beginning to believe too that this may be for the best. I have learned so much about her that I didn't know so I am glad my son is away from her. If she hadn't done this and he had left he would have still been around her. This way maybe he will move on with his life and find someone new. But first we want to get this dismissed, visitation rights and hopefully he will get full or joint custody of his son.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">What the enemy means for bad , God turns it around and let's it be good.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">So I am trusting God that everything will be alright.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></strong>Sexynanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14732615235460817313noreply@blogger.com2